● What I Wish For

Midnight:01

Change. Is a word.

Nothing lasts forever. Change is life and everything in it… changes. I heard those words in my very impressionable first years when my father said them to me.

Let’s see… I was seven years old. Not fully aware what it meant exactly, it made me feel sad. It was when I wished for a doll, art supplies, or something special that my family could not give me at the time. I did not like what it implied in my young brain. It seemed to me that the numerous changes in our circumstances blocked the good things I wanted to have and keep in my life.

All of the ways we give, get and lose are evidence of constant exposure to change. That includes friends, jobs, status as big sister or brother, self-perception, personal power and more if we think about it.

It is harder when it seems to happen out of our control. What happens to father, mother or siblings affects us deep in our cells. We all experience it. We all feel it. Hmmm, all we’re doing is living. Can’t help it. Right?

Having say over my own life is my lifetime goal. Well, I can try. Conventional thinking about having control over nothing, not even your life, is gaslighting on a grand scale. It seems that other people and outside forces are permitted to do so for their purpose, but you are not allowed to control… you.

A Cause

I have observed, time and again, when people get the opportunity to reign over their own lives, they balk. Why? I believe it is because they have not been taught that they have choice and personal dominion.

Deliberate cognitive dysfunction – that’s what it’s called. Through no fault of our own as citizens of this world, we have given over our lives to some one or some thing not of our choosing.

Breaking out of the shackles is difficult. And often no one even attempts to help you for fear of bruises and punishment that may rain down on them and on you.

An Effect

Often change, that inevitable change, occurs as the universe sees fit. Can you feel it, see it, smell it, and taste it? Even nature is spurring on and provoking change.

Not satisfied with how things have been forcefully set up as the accepted way of the world, people are rising up and speaking out. First softly, now they are acting and moving assertively. An effective way is through all their choices in daily living. The goal is to wrest the planet back from the hands of the long time plunderers of humanity.

Many occurrences this past year encourage me everyday to stand up with millions of my fellow humans… and exercise my choices.

Get your mind ready

We can use our senses and our voices to call out relentless attempts at demoralization.

• trust what you see with your own eyes,
• accept the truth that you asked for,
• stand a minute or a day longer for that favor from the universe – it’s seeking you,
• take every opportunity to strengthen your mind.

You may get bruised. Your stature (or ego) may take a licking. If you flip the script, everything in your life might get redefined. Could you stand that? Could you follow through in your quest for something better? Would you recognize yourself? Can you do it before it is your very last, life-defining act?

Hate comes from behind a keyboard or behind corporate doors, in the home or in the streets, in the wood shop, and all places in-between. Everyone and everything feels it and responds in their own way.

Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated.

– Coretta Scott King

Before I do what I am about to do – anything I am about to do – I wake up my consciousness. This is what comes to me… every time: in any situation, I simply consider how I would like to be treated—and then I do just that.

If I have to think that through a hundred times before I act, then I think it through one hundred times. More and more, I do it automatically. Having just that one tool, I can do the thing that I wish to do. Would you?

My wish

My wish is that I feel grateful for any change. I realize that it gives me another chance to grow, further break the silence, and use my voice. I want to feel that it does not always mean losing. Getting what I need and want is change, too.

I am not afraid of change. I do feel, however, that it clutches more of what I want or even prefer to give in return. Many have given more. Some gave all they had. And yes, I know that letting go helps me discover more of life to hold, and keep, even if only for a little while.

Change is a chameleon

I also find that it is not a fearful thing.

Sometimes someone or something confronts me for the purpose of changing me. Maybe I’m ready. Maybe I’m not. That thing – whomever or whatever – forgets what I can do.

I know I have the personal, collective, and genealogical power to come up with a relevant response.

Never judge another knight without first knowing the strength and cunning of the dragons he fights.

– Richelle E. Goodrich

Rarely, while attempting to act responsibly in the world, do I forget it. As distressful as it might seem, I know change happens to me, for me, and mightily, it happens through me.

In another moment I may lose but I gain, too. A lesson is in there, somewhere. Then I loosen the reins on my mind and my life. I let go of so much that was not working. When I think about it, really think about it, I didn’t lose a thing.

Yes, change is a chameleon and so am I.

The battles that count aren’t the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself – the invisible, inevitable battles inside all of us – that’s where it’s at.

– Jesse Owens

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Go on… Make your wishes.

Embrace the new year.

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Surround yourself with people who make you hungry for life, touch your heart, and nourish your soul.

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I am resting for a day or two, however long it takes. Then it’s back to the wood shop.